support

So, after that crazy screwed up conversation of last week, I have told most of my friends about it, editing for those who don't know about my WLS plans yet.

They have all been incredibly supportive, and the righteous anger has been intense! Thank God I have such a strong support system, made up of women of all sizes and ages. My thinnest friend was threatening violence against the offender, and that meant a lot. I have a few very slender friends who really seem to love and accept me and other fat girls just the way we are--no judging, no fat=bad comments, just tasty food and lots of love.

I wish all of us could have friends like that. On second thought, I wish everyone could be like that! Then maybe we wouldn't all have such body-image issues.

My friends and I have decided to do a toxic flush-type diet in June. Lots of veggies, no dairy or sugar or caffeine. The caffeine will be the hardest, I think. I'm not ready for that kind of headache, but I guess I will live, and I need to give up caffeine before my surgery anyway.

I have my consultation with the surgeon the second week in June, and I hope that after this toxic flush I will be down several more pounds, and therefore that much closer to meeting his pre-surgery goal for me, whatever that may be. I'm anticipating it will be around 30 lbs or so, from my initial program weigh-in. I lost about 13 pounds before that, which is good for me, but doesn't count for the pre-surgery qualifications. (aarrgh.)